Tonight Ryan's ship pulled away from the port and he is out for another 8 months. I can't really fathom that amount of time without him. It's the hardest thing I've had to do thus far, and I know it's going to be extremely difficult dealing with life and not having him here with me.
I've been packing everything up the last few days and making sure that everything's ready for the move.
Right now, I'm just sad. I'm sad that he's gone, and I'm sad that I've got to push through the holidays without him. I'm really just a hot mess.